Tuesday, February 5, 2013
third trimester thoughts
we have officially entered the third trimester!
growing and feeling very pregnant these days. but feeling good. enjoying this pregnancy so much more than with elle. and it doesn't feel that different. the normal aches and pains are looming and the sleepless nights are about all i can bare, but it could be a lot worse. this i know.
last night i was reading a natural childbirth book and started getting really excited about the birth. there is a part of me that is also nervous and maybe a little anxious about how it will all play out, but i can't even express how much joy fills me knowing that i will be in my home with my family and that my body will decide when i will have my baby.
calm, manageable, quiet, smooth, relaxed, and present. what, i believe, it is meant to be. and what i pray harry's birth will be. i know in my heart of hearts that it is going to be hard and that there are going to be moments that i will wonder why i chose this route but in those moments i will choose to push through because, quite frankly, i will have no other choice!
i'm smarter than to think that i know the exact plan of harry's birth. there are a dozen scenarios that could play out that would cause me to have another hospital birth. which i am totally 100% okay with.. ideally, its peaceful, at home. we have him and go on our merry way. and god willing that will happen. and that is my prayer, that i/we will experience this birth in its most natural form! but, ultimately, harry's safety is my number one priority. i am okay with whatever may be.
the other day aaron asked what we needed to be doing to prepare for sweet harry. we started thinking and there really is nothing. we are so ready. all the big purchases we made with elle are all gender neutral and will carry over for harry. i breastfed elle and will breastfeed this baby, so don't need any equipment there. we have decided to give cloth diapering a try with our little guy so we are slowly stock piling cloth diapers. those suckers are expensive. but, in the long run, we will save a ton of money on diapers. and have you seen cloth diapers? they are so stinkin' cute!
our plan is for elle and harry to share a room, but we are not going to go there until he is sleeping through the night, so no need to even prepare a space for him. he'll just bunk with us until we are ready to put them together. i am so excited to plan and execute that room! it will be a challenge for me but so fun creating a fun, creative space for a sister and her little brother!
this pregnancy has been a dream. i really don't even remember how sick i felt the first few months and the next few months are going to go by so fast. we have so much going on. i feel so fortunate to have had the easy pregnancy i've had to date and so blessed that we (me and baby) have been healthy through out. i could not ask for anything more.
we are so excited for april to get here, but at the same time i'm trying not to wish away these last precious months with just us and elle. we cannot wait to see her transition into the role of big sister and she is more than excited to meet harry. she tells he everyday that he is ready to come out and play!
soon, baby, soon.